Wednesday, October 31, 2012

What I Wore Wednesday

It is Wednesday!!!!  Yeah!  That means that, yes, I am putting pictures of myself online.  I promise it is not because I am is for accountability and great advice.  We are a group of bloggers who post pictures of outfits in order to keep us out of our pjs and yoga pants!  We link up with Lindsey and get GREAT ideas from each other.  Join us!

I feel like I should apologize ahead of time because my photos will not be edited.  I have spent the last two Wednesdays in the hospital with my husband trying to figure out what is wrong with him and why he has had a weird range of symptoms that make sense to no one.  I have a lot of pics for today but none edited and I apologize.

Tee: Target
Sweater: Target
Jeans: Local boutique
Boots: Madden Girl
Jewelry: Premier

Shirt: LOFT
Scarf: Charming Charlies
Jeans: Buckle
Shoes: Naturalizer

Dress: LOFT
Boots: DSW
Jewelry: Silpada

I wore this to school but then was cold heading out to a soccer game so I threw on my jean jacket.
Tank: Calvin Klein (Costco)
Shirt: Chicos
Jeans: Buckle
Boots: Ariat
Jean Jacket: LOFT
Sling Purse: 31

This is my Orange Out shirt.  We have a teacher whose daughter is fighting leukemia and we sold shirts to help raise money for the high cost of treatments.  We had a county wide orange out day and it was really cool to see the number of people who were wearing this shirt.
shirt: local company
Jeans: LOFT
Boots: Madden Girl

Just to say-I love this outfit but according to our new dress code, I was against policy.  If you wear leggings, your dress or skirt has to hit at or BELOW your knees...correct me if I am wrong, but you don't need leggings if your dress is to or past your knees, right?

Dress: Belk-Sophie Max
Sweater: LOFT
Leggings: Belk
Shoes: Naturalizer
Jewelry: Silpada
 L/S tee: Target Tissue Tee--love them
Tank: LOFT
Jeans: Buckle
Boots: local boutique

I was freezing but I hate wearing socks around the house---hence the squished up, exposed toes, but the sweater wrapped around me.
Tee you can't see: LOFT
Sweater: LOFT
Jeans: LOFT

field trip day!  love these and hate these days!
Shirt: a mom made it for me-it has our school initials on it
Pants: Buckle
Shoes: local running store but I have no idea the brand
sling purse: 31

if you made it all the way here, congrats.  This is probably my fave outfit.  Funny too, because there is nothing from LOFT here!  LOL

White Shirt: Target
Sweater: The Limited
Skirt: GAP
Boots: Madden Girl

I double dog dare ya to join in this fun endeavor! 

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

What I Wore Wednesday

It is Wednesday!!!!  Yeah!  That means that, yes, I am putting pictures of myself online.  I promise it is not because I am is for accountability and great advice.  We are a group of bloggers who post pictures of outfits in order to keep us out of our pjs and yoga pants!  We link up with Lindsey and get GREAT ideas from each other.  Join us!

Before I head into outfits...I want to pause and say Happy Happy Birthday to my sweet Caroline.  I cannot believe my sweet baby girl is now SEVEN!  Stop growing Caroline!!!! 

Last week seemed to be my black and gray week.  So I tried my best to up the color this week.  It was not easy!  :)

Although this first outfit is pretty bright...
Tank: Gap
Shirt: LOFT
Skinnies in BRIGHT pink: LOFT
Boots: Madden Girl

Cool night soccer game attire
Shirt: 147 Million
Jeans: LOFT
Boots: Madden Girl

Blurry picture...sorry.  I had no idea what this outfit would go through today!
Tank: Calvin Klein (by way of Costco)
Black shirt: LOFT
Jeans: Buckle
Shoes: Naturalizer

Will was playing soccer at recess and kicked a ball hard.  As the ball went flying, so did his shoe--right to the roof of the school.  I had to go get a ladder and crawl to the top of the ladder, use a broom handle and scoop his shoe off of the roof.  I then got in trouble with my principal because it was so "dangerous".  I told her the dangerous thing was leaving his not so cheap tennis shoe on the roof!

I did not feel good.  But Brusters had just opened at 11 and our kids were dying to go.  So off we went!  I look terrible!!!!
Shirt: Ruche
Pants: LOFT
Shoes: Lindsay Phillips

Dress: Belk
Belt: Gap
Boots: Boutique in town
Jewelry: Silpada

Shirt: Belk
Pants: LOFT
Boots: Madden Girl
Jewelry: Premier and Charming Charlies

Come on and join us---it's tons of fun, I promise!!!

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Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Who's in Control?

Do you ever feel like you are on a speed track in life and if you hit the brakes for just a brief moment, to say, stop and smell the roses, that all the world will collide with you and knock you on your tail?

Please tell me that it is not just me.

I feel like, since school started especially, we hit the ground running at ninety miles per hour and haven't stopped.  I am almost afraid to put this out there, but I sometimes think if I don't do all that I am "supposed" to,  the world might tip off of its axis.  (OK-not really...I am not that brazen to think that I have that much influence).  But I do tend to live my life thinking that I have to do it all-just me, with no help.

Why is that?  I am not one who really loves to work...I mean--I can sit and read a book all day long with the best of them.  But if something has to be done (kids to events, planners to be signed, homework to be checked, doctor's appointments) I feel like if I don't do it, it won't get done.

Deep down I know I am wrong.  It would get done.

It just would not get done the way I want it done.

And therein lies the problem.

It is all about control.

Currently, Tuesdays are horrendous days for us.  Mainly because of a horrendous dance schedule.  Caroline has to be at dance from 4-5, then has a break and has to be back from 6:30-7:30.  Seeing as how this place is not really close enough to home to go home during the dance times or in the in between times, it makes for a LONG day.

And I have a meeting tonight.  One I really shouldn't miss.  I already missed one meeting for this group this year and we aren't supposed to miss more than one.  But tomorrow is dance.  And if I go to my meeting (from 5-7) then I have to rely on Mark to do what I normally do.

Mark is totally reliable.  He has never NOT picked the kids up if that was his job.  But my mind starts spinning out of control.  What if he forgets?  What if he is late picking her up?  What if he doesn't take her back?

Dumb questions.  The universe will not cease to exist if she doesn't make it back to dance.  But I almost hyperventilate thinking about the fact that she might not be there when she is supposed to.


I never thought of myself as a control freak (my family can stop laughing now).  Really.  I never did.  But my eyes have been opened lately and I realize that is what I am.  Just a few weeks ago I was asked to be on a committee for church and I literally took over the end of the meeting because I was afraid no one would do what I thought should be done before the next meeting.  What?  Yes.  I did.  AND IT WAS THE FIRST MEETING FOR THIS COMMITTEE I HAD EVER ATTENDED!

I see it very clearly as I ponder my life.  I have to have my hand in all the pots, I have to know everything that's going on and I have to add my two cents.  Ridiculous.  I am running myself ragged.

But there is good news-- I know the solution.

I have to give up my control.  (yes, it makes me shake to write that)

But the One to whom I hand the reigns of this out of control life is totally capable of handling it.  How do I know?  He told me.

Psalm 147: 1-6 says:

Praise the Lord.
How good it is to sing praises to our God,
    how pleasant and fitting to praise him!
 The Lord builds up Jerusalem;
    he gathers the exiles of Israel. 
 He heals the brokenhearted
    and binds up their wounds. 
 He determines the number of the stars
    and calls them each by name. 
 Great is our Lord and mighty in power;
    his understanding has no limit. 
 The Lord sustains the humble
    but casts the wicked to the ground.

He can handle my little life and the things I think that are so important because He has numbered my days on earth, He knows the numbers of hairs on my head (and how many fall out each day on my bathroom floor) and He knows my name.

The One who heals the brokenhearted, knows my name.
The One who determines the number of stars, knows my name.
The One who calls the stars by name, knows MY name.

He knows my name and He is great and mighty.

I don't have to be great and mighty.  I am trying to do His job when I act like that (just like I did in that committee meeting).  I am saying to Him--"Hey God of the universe?  Yeah, you who made the earth in six days, parted the seas and numbered the stars- I don't think you can do as good a job at my life as I can!"  I would never, in my right mind, say that to God.  But I live like that when I try to do it all myself.

I am going to make a change (I feel a little like the Little Engine Who Could---if I repeat that enough I might start to believe it).  Seriously.  I am.  I have to.  Otherwise I am going to run out of steam by Halloween (and that would be sad because the holidays are my favorite time of year!).

I really don't know where to start, so I am going to do what the Psalmist says at the beginning of Psalm 147.   I am going to praise His name.  Why that?  Well, because I know I can do that.  I can praise Him for the healthy children I have that are involved in so many great activities.  I can praise Him for the opportunities I have each day to make a difference in the lives of the children I teach.  I can praise Him because I have an amazing family and an awesome circle of God-fearing friends.

I can praise Him because of who He is--The God of the universe and I can praise Him because, while He knows the number of grains of sand on the beach where my parents live, He also knows my name. He knows my name!  And if He can keep all of that straight, He really is the best one to be in control of my racetrack life, isn't He?

Guess what?  He knows YOUR name too.  If you feel out of control, maybe the problem is who is driving on this crazy course.  Hand over the wheel and then praise His name because He won't let you crash and burn. 

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Sunday, October 14, 2012

The Stripes

We had communion at church last  Sunday morning.

That is unusual because we typically have it on Sunday night.

I am not a regular on Sunday nights (if my pastor is reading this he may even laugh out loud at that one...he and his wonderful bride like to call me an SMO--Sunday Morning Only).  Needless-to-say, it had been a while since I participated in the Lord's Supper.

The beauty of the sacrifice gets me every time.

I am humbled by what my Lord determined was the only way to save me.  The only way to allow me to enter into the gates of heaven.  The only way to be able to forgive me for my endless failures was to send His perfect Son to die in my place.  He made that decision long before I was ever a twinkle in my momma's eye.  He made that decision not just for me, but for all of us.

And Sunday we took part in the breaking of bread and the drinking of wine (ok, it was grape juice) in honor of that sacrifice.  As my pastor read this from Isaiah 53:
Surely he took up our pain
    and bore our suffering,
yet we considered him punished by God, 

 stricken by him, and afflicted.  

But he was pierced for our transgressions,
    he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him,

I was reminded of everything He did for us...just so we could have peace.  Peace.  In a world where there is no real peace, He gave up His life so that we could know His Peace.  

It makes no sense to me, especially when I think of how often I fail Him.  

As we held our wafers, my pastor told us to look at it and think about what it said to us.  The holes in the cracker represented the piercing of the nails that held Him on the cross.  The stripes represented the beatings he received before He carried His cross and died for you and for me.  

I pondered this and casually flipped my cracker over to look at all of the stripes that were present on my small portion.  I was thinking of how many of those beatings belong just to me.   One side of my cracker had the stripes like you see above.  But the other side?

There were no dark stripes on the other side of my cracker. 

I flipped it  over--stripes.   Flipped it back--no stripes.  If it had not been completely inappropriate, I would have taken a picture.  I seriously contemplated it.  But I didn't.

I pondered my cracker and what it could mean.

Then I heard a gentle whisper.

"On the front side of the cross(the side of my cracker with the stripes), there are beatings.  There are nail wounds.  There is blood.  Enough blood to cover the multitude of sins this world will commit.  There are denials, lies, betrayal.   There is death.  The death of My Son and the death of what you deserve.  On the back side of the cross (the side of my cracker with no stripes)--there is nothing but white.  Pure white.  Because the blood of the cross has made you clean.  Flowing from the cross, that trail of tears and blood transforms into holy ground, pure and perfect and unstained.  My Son took your place, and because of that you live free and clear of a debt you could have never paid.  Take this, eat it and remember all that I have done because I love you."

I was overwhelmed.  The Lord's Supper is always powerful.  Add to that the privilege of hearing that gentle whisper...overwhelmed does not seem a strong enough word.  His words-a merciful reminder that no matter where I am in my walk with Him, His blood covered it all.  

He loves me as much today as He did the day He died for me.  That love is more than enough.  That love is wrapped in mercy, grace, and an unending  supply of forgiveness.  

I am more than grateful that He took those stripes for me.  And I want to live my life in such a way that it honors His pain and sacrifice.

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Friday, October 12, 2012

Fall Faves

There is just something about fall.  I love fall.  There is something peaceful about the whole changing of seasons, cooler weather and the fact that the once brilliant and full trees change and prepare for a stark contrast during winter. 

Perhaps it is that I can relate to the trees.  We are always changing, hopefully getting better, always anticipating the next season of life and needing a little down time.  Don't you think we would take the trees for granted if they were always thick and lush?  Or maybe we wouldn't appreciate the beauty of the changing leaves if they were always those amazing colors. 

I don't know what it is that has me so in love with fall, but I thought I would try to put words and pictures to what I feel.   These are in no particular order.

 1. Pumpkin Spice Lattes

Oh how these warm my belly and my tongue and light up my tastebuds.  Now, I can't handle too big of one or too many of them because they are super sweet...but I do love one every now and then!

2. College football

Now, truly, this picture was added for my sweet husband...he is a graduate of South Carolina and they got a big win last weekend over rival Georgia.  I like college football.  I will tolerate it but really only because it means that we are THAT MUCH CLOSER to COLLEGE BASKETBALL!!!

3 and 4.  Cooler weather means boot wearing. 

I love my boots! These are my new faves...Mark says I can't wear them often because they are Georgia red, but I don't care.  I love them.

5. Holidays!!!! 

We just came off our fall break and we are only 5.5 weeks away from Thanksgiving.  That is enough to give this weary teacher hope!!!!!

6. My kids' birthdays!

Aren't they cute?  Don't their precious poses make you want to send them gifts?  That is what they are hoping for...I am just thankful for them.  They are the joy in my life and they keep me laughing (when they aren't fighting with each other!)

7. Soccer for Will

This is the first season he has played and he loves it.  I am glad that he loves it and is having fun.  He gets so excited on gamedays!!!!

8. Apple Picking
Mark LOVES to go apple picking each fall.  He plans weekend activities around apple picking and he has passed his enthusiasm on to our kids.  I like to go apple picking, but mainly for the fried apple pies and ice cream once we are done picking!

9.  Changing leaves

I have some friends out in Colorado who have been sending me pictures of their awesome leaves for weeks now and I must admit...this is my street--last year.  Our leaves have not started changing and are probably not ready yet...but I anticipate it coming soon.  I love driving down my road and seeing the proof of God's handiwork.

10. Things that make me laugh. 
 Truthfully, I like things that make me laugh all year long...but I thought I would share some of the funniest ones I have received.  Laughing is good for my soul and I love to laugh.  I love to hear other people laugh. 

This next one is me to a tee!  I wish it weren't but it is.  And it makes me laugh every time I read it.  Not because I am proud of what I say that I shouldn't, but more because I have a daughter now with absolutely no filter on her mouth...

What are your favorite things about fall?

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Wednesday, October 10, 2012

What I Wore Wednesday

It is Wednesday!!!!  Yeah!  That means that, yes, I am putting pictures of myself online.  I promise it is not because I am is for accountability and great advice.  We are a group of bloggers who post pictures of outfits in order to keep us out of our pjs and yoga pants!  We link up with Lindsey and get GREAT ideas from each other.  Join us!

Dress: Old Navy
Leggings: Belk
Belt: GAP
Jewelry: Silpada

Shirt: Chicos
Jeans: Rock Revival-thrifted
Shoes: ???

I started in this outfit--wore it to the grocery store...with flip flops.  But had to quickly change before we headed out to a friend's house to watch football because it was COLD!
Shirt: Chicos
Jeans: Buckle

and the warmer version...
added sweater: LOFT
Boots: Local boutique

Shirt: Ann Taylor
Skirt: Belk
Boots: OLD

Sweater: Anthropologie
Jeans: Buckle
Shoes: Flip flops (but froze in them!)

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Wednesday, October 3, 2012

What I Wore Wednesday

It is Wednesday!!!!  Yeah!  That means that, yes, I am putting pictures of myself online.  I promise it is not because I am is for accountability and great advice.  We are a group of bloggers who post pictures of outfits in order to keep us out of our pjs and yoga pants!  We link up with Lindsey and get GREAT ideas from each other.  Join us!

 They all made fun of me at school today because they wanted to know if it was snowing.  haha  I keep my classroom frigid, so yes, in my room, it very well could be snowing!!  :)
Dress and Leggings: Belk
Sweater: LOFT
Scarf: Charming Charlies
Boots: Madden Girl

Tank: LOFT
Shirt: Belk
Jeans: Ann Taylor
Boots: Local Boutique
Jewelry: Silpada

 Soccer game attire:
Shirt: UNC student store
Shorts: Under Armor
 Tank: Target
Shirt: Thrifted
Jeans: GAP
Jewelry: Silpada
Shirt: Chapel Hill Sportswear
Pants: Victoria Secret

Tank: Belk
Sweater: LOFT
Pants: Chicos
Hat: Charming Charlies
Fancy dinner with a HORRIBLE food!
Dress: LOFT
Boots: ???? Old as the hills

also linking up with transatlantic blonde:

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